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A Beautiful Disaster.

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[09 Sep 2005|10:22am]
the last time i posted any pictures of Cleo was when she was a pup, but i took this the other week on my new digital camera so i thought i'd show ya.

she still looks a bit like a rat i guess, but i love her to bits.
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Just for fun. [01 Sep 2005|11:19pm]
Well to start with I have yet another new layout, and I actually didn't pinich the whole thing this time, I made the header and did the colours etc...:P


Anway nuff bout that, i'm bored so im gunna do this





I seriously have too much spare time at the moment hahahaha
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I'm back [15 Aug 2005|12:36am]
[ mood | loved ]

Finally I'm in my own house.

Its actually quite nice to be home, strange as that seems.
Seeing James was fabulous, even if it did mean missing lots of BB :O shocking huh.
Got a tan whilst there too ;) so i'm looking hawtttttttt baby.
Its been FIVE WEEKS AND THREE ALMOST 4 DAYS since I quit smoking...woohooo.

I did put on a little weight, but it seems to be coming back off now again :D
I'm feeling greatttttttttttttttttttttt
Should be enrolling at college over the next couple of weeks, lets just hope i keep feeling this good.
Thats it really, I'm just happy with everything, my love is fan 'fookin' tastic, my depression seems to be kind of under control, I finally know what i wanna do with my life, my house is looking good, i have more energy than ever, and determination not to let my self get in the kind of despair i was in before ever again.


Almost 9 months now :O world record for me.

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Download this song NOW. [23 May 2005|09:58pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

This fantastically beautiful song was brought to my attention by someone equally as beautiful and its just lovely, i havent stopped listening to it since i downloaded it.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful.

So if its the last thing u do, make sure u listen to it or i'll find u and send the boys round.

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Adult Little Girls?!?! [26 Feb 2005|02:23pm]
Christ I think Ive found the biggest bunch of legal weirdos on the net ever...check this link and go down to the site map and click my photo collection if you dare.

Grown Men In Dresses

After going through them again i have only just noticed this picture which is seriously fucked up....so if you dont wanna see some crazy weirdo wearing a kids dress and wanking dont look.

FFS this guys a freak
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How Weird Are You? [22 Jan 2005|11:28am]
4% are more weird,
1% are just as weird, and
95% are more normal than you!

What is your weird quotient? Click to find out!
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[14 Jan 2005|03:14pm]
My paid account has expired :|
How unimpressed am i?!?!

Not alots been going on, went to a kids party with Tyler on Wednesday night that turned into an all nighter, and i got home with a very sleepy kid at around 2am. I was drinking wine, I'd never actually thought i liked it so it was pretty much a first for me and it hit me like a ton of bricks and i was hammered, and whoa did i suffer all day Thursday for it.

Well thats about it really, its 2005 and i'm looking into making some major changes in my life, bout time huh?!?!

I reckon i might quit smoking (again), I'm debating getting a job, but I am seriously planning to go to College in Sept, although saying that its months away so yeah maybe it would work (me thinking out loud here).

Okay thats enough....
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The Search Is On!!!! [06 Jan 2005|10:20pm]
BB6 Auditions
From dsbb.

Auditions for Big Brother 6 will take place through February and March, Channel 4 announced today.

The auditions for the next series, rumoured to last a record four months, will retain the same 'open' format that proved successful in 2004.

Cities undertaken in the casting call include Edinburgh, Newcastle, Dublin, Manchester, Cardiff, Birmingham and London.

Full details are available on the Official Big Brother Site
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2 in one day huh [17 Dec 2004|12:07am]
[ mood | content ]

Today started out really badly, i had some major pmt, i was seriously reading to commit murder on just about anyone, and to top it off i had to go and do some more christmas shopping, imagine that hahahha.

Anyhow after spending a pain filled day being a complete emotional wreck and crying at everything, i rang James and even though were miles apart he always manages to cheer me up, he just says the right things I dont even think he knows he does it, I'm not gunna go into what he said but it really made me smile, which to be honest i didnt think even he would be able to get me to do.

its seriously doing my head in that were apart till New Years Eve, okay to alot of ppl 2 weeks doesnt seem long, but to me it seems like forever, i'm just hoping that with christmas it will go so fast and he will be here again in no time, god i so love being with him, when he's here nothing else in the whole world matters, its just all so perfect.

Anyway soppy bit over, i know he reads this and he already thinks i'm a soppy cow lately, so i need to go back to being a bitch.
I just watched the Shawshank Redemption, yes i know its been out years i just never bothered, but James has lent me his dvd of it so i thought it would be rude not to watch it, and oh my god it was fantastic, its gotta be one of the best films i've seen in a long time, it was brilliantly written and played and i honestly didnt think he was going to escape i thought he was gunna kill him self :O.
Okay enuff now, just restarting ma download of Oceans 12 which is only gunna take me like 8 days to download, stupid bit torrent.

Oh yeah n Ange, that youcef torrent link i gave ya, i was told today the reason its not working is cos the French Goverment have taken it down :O not sure why yet tho, i'll have to look into that lol

Nite Ya'll

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For Angela [06 Dec 2004|01:35pm]
[ mood | devious ]

its not great but i found this icon, its a bit blurry cos whoever compressed it aint a genius wiv psp like i am...hahahaha
Found it for you anyhow, just couldnt be arsed to upload to ma server so added it as an icon, take it if ya want, i wont be offended if u dont.

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How Strange [06 Dec 2004|12:07am]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm not completely sure why this is happening, but where i live there arent many negros at all, but since the weather turned cold there have been loads, now my theory was that like swallows (the birds, least i think its them) they fly to hotter climates during the winter months, I kinda assumed the negros did the same, but apparently they have some secret agenda this year, they have all decided to flock to where I live, its fuckin ludacris, who on earth gave them permission to remain in the country ffs.

I was so embarassed when James was here and I think we saw TWO in as many days, Jesus its just not on is it, but at least it means this year I will have a full tree of lit up negros instead of stupid fairy lights, mind u the smell of burning skin does tend to linger well past christmas and into the summer months :|

I have made a decision about the new year and where i'll be but at this moment its top secret and if i told you i would have to send the Triads round to cut you into small pieces and stir fry you, and we wouldnt want that....x

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The one and only reason i need a man.... [13 Nov 2004|01:22pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Christ I have been trying to get things in order round ma house, this includes doing things I cant do, this is why I need a fella who lives close...

Hoovering, washing, etc...yeah i hate doing it but i can actually do it....but when it comes to putting up light fittings and twice blowing all the fuses in the place and putting up pictures and then taking em down again 4 times cos they wonky, well I need a man that lives near me and not miles away :|, but after throwing a tantrum a million times and throwing things all over, its all done, and u cant even see all the old nail marks behind the pictures, just hope i dont forget the mess it looks if i ever take em down, i'm stuck wiv em now till i move.

oh yes and i fell out wiv ma mother yet again, the woman drives me crazy, she does lil tiny things that okay probably wouldnt annoy anyone but me, but she so knows which buttons to press to drive me mental....infact i'm just really pissed off today, i really dont wanna go out tonite but i have been ordered that i am going :|, i'm out wiv 4 lads and just me and Tracey, and were going to a lap dancing club, i know for a fact they aint gunna let girls in but oooooh noooooo apparently i'm wrong :| cunts...i bet this time tomorrow i am posting to say it was a shit nite and we werent let in.

Christ, i dont wanna get another year older, 26 is bad enuff, i'm dreading being 27 :| maybe if i sleep thru the whole of tomorrow i can ignore it happens completely.

Oh yeah the only good thing to happen so far is that i got birfday cards from Colin n Kel, and one from 2 other ppl who i love to death and are completely cute and adorable...mwahhhh ty xxxxx

Right i'm off to be annoyed some place else...ciao x

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Im Watching You Angela. [22 Oct 2004|10:49am]
[ mood | mischievous ]

Here is my new icon that I did make all by myself, it took weeks to perfect as I had to set up the camera in my bedroom firstly, then I had to get some bloke to come home with me and agree to have sex with me on top, which is not an easy thing to get someone to agree to trust me, then the weeks of effort of having to snip bits off to make the file small enuff.

Now Angela, you fucking whore, I know you love me but I do not wish to see myself on your journal so be warned, I will get the police involved if you do steal it!

Also, yes the man I did get to agree to this was black, who else would have agreed though, I mean gotta be as desperate as I was huh.

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hahahahahaha.... [16 Oct 2004|06:45pm]
After reading Rays post I found this on the site he posted...

The Chav baby name generator...it kills me

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New Layout [15 Oct 2004|10:32am]
[ mood | confused ]


I love this layout, its bitchin'

Been a while since I played wiv ma journal, looking good huh...

Not alot to say on my personal life apart from its all over the place so I'm not going to comment on it just yet, apart from men are like buses, you hang around and there aren't any then 2 - 3 come at once, how come its always when your involved with someone that someone else turns up to make you wonder what your really doing?

Downloaded the beta version of msn 7 today, its weird looking, not sure if I like it yet, apparently is full of bugs and not all too safe at the moment, so I am just gunna give it a whizz and see what I think, if you wannit and your on my msn obviously let me know....for information on the bugs with it, check out http://www.mess.be

Oh yeah and I finally worked out how to do the system restore on xp, div or what huh?!?! (don't actually reply to that!)

Useful Hint:

Don't delete Explorer its not a smart move. (Christ what retard would do that huh?!?!)

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This is Davina, your live on livejournal...please dont say fuck or bastard. [20 Aug 2004|05:53pm]
Ok I got a lil stressy over not hearing from a certain person for a while, but things are all hunky dory again now :d
I worry too much lol.
Not alot to say really apart from that...

oh yeah spoke to Andy the other day *yawns* No doubt he will read this so hello u nosey fuck.

Hopefully Harry is comin to see me in a few weeks again, things are really busy for him at the moment...bless his lil cotton socks, cant wait to see him tho, he is just soooooo lovely and things are a million times better than I had ever imagined they would be, so i'm one happy bunny

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[15 Aug 2004|01:39pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Last time i posted i did say that Harry was meant to come here for the weekend again, but things happened and that was unable to happen!

Colin an Kelly being the lovely ppl they are didnt want me spending the week alone (Ty had gone on hols with ma mum) So they came and picked me up last Saturday and took me back to Kent with them for the week, I had a great time and they are really lovely ppl, yeah i know not everyone thinks that but never mind lol..

Anyway Wednesday Harry was working near where they live and had to stay over so he came and picked me up and we stayed in this massive posh hotel, it was amazing (http://www.go-golf.net/reviews/ukire/selsdon.html ) thats where we stayed, it was lovely, we had a larf and then the obvious, which i'm still not gunna go into lol..

So anyway after that he dropped me off back at colins and went off to work, i just chilled out for the day, but the next day I had some serious issues and I was missing him loads, christ I dont admit to that much, cutting a long story short, I got home at 6am, I have had a great week, saw Colin N Kelly and ma honey, even tho I'm still missing him, its not the same talkin to him online as being with him! But I will get used to it I guess.

Cant wait to see him again, but with his job and all the travellin he does its hard to say when thats gunna be, but hopefully it wont be too far off.

love ya'll chat soon.

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[27 Jul 2004|11:07am]
I don't give a damn about you
No nothing can change my mind
No way
I'm happy just to let you walk away

Don't think about you at night
I'm happy to be alone
It's ok
But that was yesterday and now I'm

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean shit


I'm calling you at 3am and I,
I'm standing here right outside your door
But I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
And I don't think that my heart can take more

I don't give a damn what you do
I'm gonna get with you
And that's the way this night is gonna end
You said you need some time
How long does it take to see
That we are more than meant to be
And now you're driving in your car
But you won't get far
Cos' your car is shit


I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cos' I don't think that my heart can take much more

Can take much more (echoes)
Can take much more (echoes)
Can take much more (echoes)

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean shit


I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cos' I don't think that my heart can take much more
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Finally [25 Jul 2004|11:54am]
Christ I have had a strange weekend...Arry said he would come and see me, well after the amount of times he has let me down I was like yeah ok. But he actually did, he turned up Friday nite and soon as I laid ma eyes on him I was droolin', a million miles from the effect Andy had on me hahhaha. I was obviously slightly drunk, but it went really well after only about 10 mins I felt like I had known him my whole life, he is so easy to get along with and pretty easy on the eye too.

We had a right larf, stayed up well late talking to Colin n Kelly online which helped, I'm not gunna mention the sex, not cos it was bad, but obviously that kinda stuff is personal, and then on the Saturday we had a pretty lazy day and then he took me to see Thunderbirds, which wasnt that bad at all, it was weird being in places I've been to before with him!

Anyhow cutting it short he left about 30 mins ago and it was well weird, its not like I know him that well and i have only spent a couple of days with him but I already miss him, I never in a million years expected it to turn out this way, I was a little worried that after the whole Andy thing I wouldnt fancy him or vice versa, so when he kissed me I was blown away.  I am a little worried at the state of things tho, he lives in Bristol and works a hell of a lot and I live here and dont drive, as much as I want this to work i'm not sure its gunna, i guess only time will tell. He said he is definatly gunna see me again, but the pessimist in me is having doubts he will, hopefully thats just me being majorly paranoid.

Altogether the whole weekend went so much better than I ever imagined and it was perfect!
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[07 Jul 2004|09:33am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I'm at a bit of a loss where to start and to be honest I have no idea why I'm posting this....I just felt the need to vent I guess.

Where I live the local paper runs a baby comp each year, which I personally think is stupid, I never entered my son as I don't need a load of complete strangers telling me he is gorgeous when I already know it. But anyhow I didnt bother reading it and then 3 weeks ago the finalists were pictured...and low and behold my sons dad (who said he never wanted children btw, and deserted us) has had a kid and he is in it. I felt pretty numb about it, I wasnt upset for me or anything, I was pissed off that he is doing all the things he should have done with Tyler with this child, that he said he didnt want kids and then went on to have one which has obviously been welcomed into his family with open arms, whilst my son is not even acknowledged. I'm pissed off that Tyler has a brother, and as much as I have been prepared for the questions about his father and his side of the family to arise from Tyler anytime soon, I wasnt prepared for this, I never expected it to happen, he has a brother that he has no idea about.  Anyway this week his sons picture was in the paper again for being a runner up and there he is, Tylers dad looking all proud with his witch of a wife and his son....One good thing to have come outta this is that after all this time of not seeing him I looked at him and felt absolutely nothing, for so long he has always been at the back of my mind, when ever I have started a new relationship I have compared everyone to him, and usually in a weird kind of way he has played a huge part in the ending of most of my relationships as well....but I can honestly say I looked at him and just felt nothing, he looks alot different, like its not the person I knew, which is understandable as it was over 5 years ago. Its Tyler I feel for that wanker left us with nothing, yet now he gives time, love and attention to his new son....time, love and attention that Tyler deserved. God i'm so pissed off its unbelievable...

I personally think its time I made his perfect little life a bit difficult, I have sat in the side lines for long enough, why should he be happy when almost every day when I look at Tyler I think of him and wonder if he is thinking of Tyler, I honestly am not pissed off for myself, but how can you have a child and then just reject it, never want contact or anything, yet then go on to have another and pretend the first never existed....well...things are about to change for him!!!

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